Happiness
Duty: When Obligation Blocks Our Own Shot at Happiness
No one owes anyone their life.
Posted November 7, 2022 Reviewed by Hara Estroff Marano
Key points
- Making good choices is essential to happiness.
- Sometimes a particular decision puts us at odds or in conflict with ourselves.
- You want to have a value system or some way to make right choices for yourself, especially when they’re important.
- It is necessary to consider what, on balance, is most important to you.
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Corinne was British, a graduate of the University of Cambridge. But despite the classy credentials, she was struggling to see herself as forward-looking, capable, even exciting.
Corinne’s problems were transnational, a contest between the life that she’d made here and the one back in England. Since graduating from Cambridge in the early 2000s, she had worked in New York as an economist for a large British bank. It meant crunching reams of data but, in addition, traveling to regional exchanges to see how growing companies would likely perform. She met lots of people. Since some of those people also traveled, she’d see them when they came to town. In particular, there was a guy whom she fancied, Carl. The relationship, as she described it, was “hot and heavy, but punctuated.” They saw each other when they could and, lately, had taken vacations together.
But there was a hitch. Corinne had just turned 40, but her mother was 78. She lived alone, south of London, and was terrified of being moved to an assisted living facility because of encroaching memory issues. She wanted Corinne to return to England to care for her and keep her out of the clinic. During the past few months, in fact, as her mother’s situation worsened and her pleas became more intense, Corinne had taken time off to see for herself. But it couldn’t go on this way. Something had to give. Either Corinne moved in with her mother, or she stayed in New York and consigned her mother to the clinic. Carl would be history (or nearly).
As we spoke, it became clear that she felt torn. She had grown into her life in New York. Carl had even talked about trying to relocate from Chicago. They weren’t sure that he could, but that he even raised the possibility suggested that he might upend his life for her. It was the first time anyone had expressed such feelings, and Corinne teared up when she described them. Ever the realist, of course, she knew that Carl wasn’t proposing marriage. “But who knows?” she said.
There were many factors affecting Corinne’s decisions. There was Carl, of course, and the possibility of a fulfilling relationship. Equally important was the sense she had of herself as a competent woman with a good career and prospects. In fact, I thought that part of what attracted Carl, who was a banker himself, was that Corinne was something of a high-flyer. She suggested that her work made her persona. “If I just went back to being somebody in a house with an aging parent, the aura would be gone.”
Corinne had been around the block often enough to know that love is complex. Why do people love us? What makes us beautiful, exciting, comforting? Apparently, Carl liked strong, competent women. They gave him a buzz. Corinne suggested that apart from the effect of relocation—adding 3000 miles to a long-distance relationship—radically changing her persona would have the effect of radically sinking her appeal. It would certainly sink her self-confidence, her readiness to put herself out there for successful, discriminating men like Carl. She’d be less likely to take emotional risks, which encouraging Carl’s move would certainly be.
But whatever Corinne’s romantic concerns, she felt profoundly obligated to her mother. She loved her, of course, and called every other day or so. But it was more. As Corinne put it, “Where would I be without my mother? She inspired me to study, to get into Cambridge—to be who I am.” In Corinne’s calculus, she owed her mother her life.
Was she looking back too fondly? Attributing to her mother what, in fact, was her own drive and ability? I asked her, and she denied it. It wasn’t so much that she cared about her mother, as one would about a parent that one dearly loved; rather, it was a sense of extreme obligation, of gratitude ratcheted up several notches. We spoke about whether any obligation to another meant rebuffing one’s own potential for love and happiness—one’s own potential to feel productive and alive.
So, what to do? It came down to her life (of which love and meaningful work are a rightful part) versus her mother’s life. I could not tell her what to do. But we talked, for example, about whether her mother was being selfish or, rather, excessively self-involved as her world shrank around her. Corinne said that the possibility had crossed her mind. But in the next breath, she wondered whether, when you owed someone, you owed them the debt in its entirety.
So, we kept talking. Carl, apparently, thought that his best strategy was just to stay out of it.
Then one day, Corinne came in and announced “I’ve decided. I can’t take this anymore.” After much thought, she had tried to put herself in her mother’s place. “I would not have asked my daughter to forego her life for mine,” she said. In other words, she’d concluded that no one should ask anyone to owe them their life. It wasn’t a fair trade. It was aggrandizing. According to Corinne, her mother was initially obligated to her, so it wasn’t as if all that careful nurturance was something extraordinary. It came with being a mother. Hence Corinne was living the life that she had every right to live. Hence her mother would go to the facility.
She explained that, in part, she had been motivated by the possibility of making it with Carl. “I thought about whether I love him,” she said, “and I decided that maybe I could. This stuff with my mother was holding me back.”
But what really impressed me was Corinne’s ability to base her decision in an emotional logic. She decided what a mother could reasonably expect of a child. Then she applied the answer to herself. She wanted to do the right thing—not just for herself, which might have been inadvertently selfish, but in terms of some abiding principle of parent/child relationships. She wanted to be able to live with her decision, which was only possible (at least, to someone like her) if it were grounded in principle and, thus, likely to be right in some universal sense.